
Picture the quiet chaos of any ordinary Tuesday morning. The kettle whistles. A radio murmurs weather reports. A knock at the door announces carers arriving to help an 87 year old woman take her Parkinson’s medication. Routine incarnate. By lunchtime, that same woman would be mistaken for dead by her own granddaughter, her breathing imperceptible, her consciousness submerged beneath someone else’s antidepressants and antipsychotics.
Let’s call this what it is. Not a “wee incident,” as one health trust employee so poetically minimized it over the phone. Not a simple oopsie in a stressed system. This was a collision course of small failures that nearly erased a human being between breakfast and lunch.
Here’s what we know. Ellen Whitla’s medications were properly labeled, living obediently in blister packs like tiny soldiers awaiting orders. Her daughter’s prescriptions were similarly housed and labeled. The carers who came to administer Ellen’s doses on not one but two occasions walked past her name to grab the wrong packets. No malice. Just haste. Just fatigue. Just whatever it is that makes us all reach for salt when we meant to grab sugar some bleary Wednesday evening.
The difference, of course, is that swapping sugar for salt will ruin pancakes. Swapping Parkinson’s meds for a relative’s mental health prescriptions? That slips a harness around your consciousness and lowers you into dark waters. Imagine surviving nearly nine decades only to be undone by something as mundane as a blister pack sitting five inches too far to the left.
I don’t say this to shame those carers. That’s too easy. I want to ask why we’ve built systems where exhausted humans checking off endless boxes in dimly lit hallways determines whether grandma remembers Christmas morning or not.
The image of Ellen’s granddaughter whispering, “I think granny’s dead” should shake something loose in all of us. To find someone you love folded over like an unposted letter, breathless. To see the person who taught you to bake shortbread biscuits reduced to a medical mystery. This is not a scene from wartime triage. This happened in a house in Newtownards between cups of tea.
Here’s the sinister bit. When Ellen began drowning in medications not meant for her, doctors initially dismissed the possibility. They hunted for strokes. They tested for seizures. Because surely, in a country with protocols and five point safety checks, a woman couldn’t possibly have been given another person’s antidepressants, right? Our blind faith in the system swallowed reality whole.
And when the truth emerged, who took the blame? Not the policies that squeeze home care visits into fifteen minute increments. Not the training programs that skim over cross checking for efficiency. Not the staffing shortages turning healthcare heroes into hollow eyed jugglers. No. They called it an incident. Like a drizzle. Like a telemarketer interrupting dinner.
Maybe it’s time to admit we’ve built our safety nets from spider silk. Pharmaceutical packaging warnings aren’t safety measures. They’re moral alibis. They let us say, “See? We labeled it. Not our fault someone didn’t look.” But when the someone is an overworked carer hopping between eight houses before lunch, that label might as well be written in theoretical physics.
Remember when airplane crashes taught us about Swiss cheese models? Slices of prevention stacked together. Holes aligning to become catastrophe. Ellen’s story should be framed in every care training room. Barcode scanners. Mandatory two person verification. Pill dispensers with biometric locks. These ideas seem dramatic until your loved one loses thirteen hours to chemical oblivion.
My petty rage isn’t about blame. It’s about aftermath. About an 87 year old who could navigate her own mind like a well kept garden now wandering through fog. About children and grandchildren tasting mortality with every shallow breath she took in that ambulance. Mable, who used to run the church flower committee. Who smells of lavender soap. Who survived wars and rationing and raising teenagers. Almost deleted because two blister packs eye each other like strangers at a bus stop.
What guts me most is imagining caretakers doubled over with guilt once the shock set in. These are not villains. These are humans drowning in workloads no person should navigate without floaties.
There is hope, stubborn as weeds in concrete cracks. Ellen survived. Her family still plans Christmas together, confusion permitting. The health trust, after an inexcusably floppy start, launched an investigation. But apologies won’t rewind the Richter scale tremor that upset the fault lines of her mind.
The reason I keep circling back to blister packs and labels is precisely because they’re not enough. You can label an avalanche warning on every tree, but if skiers can’t read the signs amidst the blizzard, what good are your labels? We need better signposts. We need brighter warnings. We need to redesign the landscape entirely.
Because here’s the truth. Healthcare workers, like all of us, are breathing, blinking collections of bad sleep and forgotten lunches and unpaid bills. To trust medication safety to weary eyes and coffee jitters because checking twice takes too long is like trusting toddler proofing to a post it note saying "don’t touch."
So where do we go from here? Imagine a world where Ellen’s carers had simple tech beeping approval before pills left the packet. Or automated dispensing machines palette swapped from Japan’s vending miracles. Or staff ratios allowing professionals to breathe between patients. Radical? Maybe. But less radical than telling families not to panic when grandma stops breathing.
The next time a policymaker calls streamlined protocols efficient, show them a photo of Ellen’s granddaughter holding what she thought was her grandmother’s corpse. Efficiency isn’t measured in ounces of time saved, but in moments of life preserved.
For now, as Christmas lights twinkle, Ellen’s family hopes she’ll make it to the table. Changed, maybe quieter, but present. We owe it to every Ellen to build systems deserving of their resilience. Not with apologies after the fact, but with prevention sturdy as her generation’s spirit. After all, survival shouldn’t depend on catching mistakes after they’ve already swallowed you whole.
By Barbara Thompson